I am a Lighthouse…

When I started this journey I believed I could bypass the darkness and jump straight to the light… what I didn’t realize was that in order to BE THE LIGHT as I was intending, I had to go the shadows and heal all that was hiding there. I had forgotten all that was hiding after my accident in 2014. I was afflicted with retrograde amnesia and for the most part could not remember my life before the day of the accident I was in. That has since changed and as I started to find the shadows that were hiding, I discovered that I could unlock the memories that had frozen in time and while I could recover time, I no longer felt the pain I once did. I can now say that I survived, as the truths I uncovered about and for myself were some of the most interesting and intense. I recovered so much while walking the path of healing including being a survivor of multiple sexual assaults, being kidnapped and abused, horrible car accidents and drug addiction, the loss of most of my family (many by choice not blood) due to trauma. And the one thing I learned from all of it is that I am stronger than I ever gave myself credit for as now I find myself thriving and I thank my shadows for keeping me safe while they did and when their job was done I am grateful for them being released. It takes strength to go searching the the shadows so that one can heal. I still have places of shadow that I am looking to uncover and heal, however I am proud of myself that I learned such a valuable lesson. Now I understand that there is no light without darkness and in order to truly heal one has to shine that light on the shadows.